Inspiration

In all my interneting (is that a word?), I came across a recent source of inspiration. So many of my friends are busy mommies that I am amazed by them. However, I think I have found a clear winner....Becca Edwards! I realized that if she can consistently, thoroughly, and humorously blog while working on her dissertation AND successfully raise 2 boys under the age of 2, then I can at least be better about blogging myself.

On that note, if you don't know what's gone on in our lives since I've last posted, then that's OK. No lengthy catch-up notes here. Just jumping back in with two feet.

I'm (we're?) 32 weeks pregnant with a boy and planning on meeting him some time between the end of March and the beginning of April. Other than the fantastically hot cankles I'm growing, nothing huge to report on that end. Poor little Ava is about to have her world rocked....thank goodness she's enamored with her big brother.

More to come in the future, along with the possibility of some humor along the way!

For Lindsey

Hey Linds....'Sup!

Thought I'd throw this out for you. :) Nothing inspirational or exciting to write about, but I thought I'd try to appease you.

For everyone else, yep I'm still preggo. 30 weeks. T-minus 70 days & counting 'til my due date. Of course, we've never made it to a due date yet.....so we shall see. If I get brave, I'll eventually take a picture & maybe even post it.

Right now

You know those times when everything is wonderful in your life & you feel so lucky to be experiencing it all? This is not one of them for me. I neither can, no do I want to, pretend otherwise.

I'm in a very blah season right now & everything seems to be compounding the effect. And while I'd love to be "getting into the spirit of the season," I am just NOT in the mood for it. Nor am I in the mood for the excess of cheer (or the pretense of it) that people feel the need to shovel on to everybody else at this time of year.

I'm sick of the expectation that I should be in an incredibly upbeat mood because my life is now how the rest of the world thinks it should be. What if I was perfectly happy before some of these changes? What if I have no desire to live up to the rest of the world's expectations of what a "perfect" mom, wife, etc. should be? Am I really a bad mother or an inadequate wife if I like working the hours I do or don't enjoy cooking or playing the part of hostess? Am I less of a woman if I can't "handle" the roles society has deemed necessary?

Perhaps the only consoling things in all of this are the people that greet me at the end of the day. No matter what else is going on, I know 3 people think the world of me & are happy for me to just be me. They all know how, in their own special ways, to make me smile when nobody else can.

Hmmm....

I know I haven't updated in a while. I'm not in much of a mood for baring my soul or anything of that sort.

Kids are great, pregnancy is moving along nicely, and Danny & I both have new jobs that are going well.

Beyond that, if you want to know right now, call & ask me. I don't feel the urge to share with the whole world at this particular time.

Lucky Me!

Sometimes you just get lucky.....here's hoping it's really happening for me.

A friend of mine from work also teaches massage therapists at one of our local, nicer spa facilities. (And, no it's not in a gym or attached to a hair salon.) Anyways, they have some very specialized prenatal/maternity massages that they offer.

Knowing that I'm a huge fan of them, said friend informed me that there will be a class coming up soon that will teach more of their therapists this technique. What does this mean for me?

Well, apparently, they need "models" to learn the techniques. Free massage!!! I'm totally up for that!

Of course, it's nice that said friend is NOT one of the people teaching OR taking this class, because that would be a little awkward. But, again, FREE MASSAGE!! Keeping my fingers crossed they really still need models & they will let me help them out!

Grrrrr.....

Time for a vent......

Yes, we know how babies are made. Pretty sure I'm done hearing that joke. Already.
Don't refer to this as an "accident." A baby is a blessing, whether planned or a surprsie.
No, I'm not having twins. Yes, I'm positive.
Yes, we'll be busy. It's OK. Pretty sure we can handle it. If we have trouble, we know we have people we love that will help us out.

That's all for now. Can you tell the hormones are raging?

And Now for Something Competely Different....

I guess it's time to formally let everyone know our news. Most of our family already knows.

Despite all of the struggles we had becoming pregnant with both Blake & Ava, we have been blessed with the coming of a 3rd baby.....as a complete surprise! We both had it somewhat in our heads (& hearts) that we wouldn't become pregnant without medicinal aid. What a shock we had when we got home from our trip. Apparently God has a bit of a sense of humor & has allowed us to become parents again.

Now, we are the first to tell you what an incredible joy it is to be pregnant & have our children. But, I would be lying if I told you that this did not completely rock our world. The shock has not quite completely worn off. The nerves are still there. (After 2 miscarriages how could they not be?!) We both have these moments of thinking, "How in the world will we manage this!"

The past 2 weeks have been a time of reconnection for all of us. It has also been a time of adjustment to the idea of having 3 little ones.

Will we love this baby with our whole hearts?
-YES.
Will all of this work itself out?
-YES.
Will our lives be forever changed for the better with the newest member of our family?
-YES.
Are we completely freaked out that we will have 2 kids under 2?
- YES YES YES!

May God give us peace and sanity in the coming days/weeks/months. Everything else will work itself out.